Being the only single and childless person in my office means:
- Whenever we go out for lunch I’m usually the driver. Why? Because everyone else drives a car with 1-2 car seats so no one else can fit, or they’re in a mid-life crisis and rode their motorcycle to work.
- I’m the first person asked about my weekend. The weekends of co-workers with spouses and don’t usually compare to my eventful 3-day weekday breaks.
- That I’ll be the one folks turn to in order to find out whats going on around town this weekend.
- I’m usually the only one with an unpredictable arrival time, since I don’t have to take the kids to school or pick them up by a certain time. Or cook dinner for my spouse. Or walk the dog on a schedule
A few years ago I was given the book Eat, Pray, Love by Elizabeth Gilbert from my grandmother who had just finished it. This was incredibly surprising to me as she was previously unable to sit still long enough to watch a movie, let alone read an entire book. The funny thing is, she had informed me that she skipped the whole “Pray” section because it wasn’t about Christianity. My grandmother is a devout Christian and a bit old fashion in many ways.
Anyway, I had began reading the book at the same time I had began a new assignment at work in a new location. The work was very challenging and although I’m usually very confident in the work I produce, I didn’t feel I had mastered what I needed from the training that I had to piece together on my own.
This new assignment was something that years prior I had hoped and prayed to one day be able secure, knowing it would be a great career boost. But I couldn’t stop complaining to my friends and family about what a challenge this new chapter was for me. I literally couldn’t fathom completing this assignment that was several months long in an unfamiliar location.
Like Elizabeth’s struggle with prayer and/in mediation, I too felt that struggle and frustration with this new position.
So as I was reading and internalizing Elizabeth’s experiences, I came to the realization that my belly aching was futile, because this is exactly what I had wanted. In the book Elizabeth writes “God might want me to be facing that particular challenge for a reason. Instead I feel more comfortable praying for the courage to face whatever occurs in my life with equanimity, no matter how things turn out.”
So with that I made up in my mind to reduce my complaints about everything, especially little things and accept and see the good in each situation. I must say I prayed a great deal during this time and related to Elizabeth and her story in a few ways. Ultimately, I grew as a person through the challenges and discomfort associated with that time in my life. The book, given to me as a gift, couldn’t have come at a more ideal time.